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Throwback to 24/8/15

Last Monday my friends and I were chilling at the table during recess, and for some topic they were engaged in I didn't know about it. Thus I was treated invisible hoping to be noticed, until I finally gave up and was like "ah dammit la". Destiny chose me to be alone, lonely and forever alone. For the next few hours I questioned my self-worth, about how I would never get a companion. The Lord gave me a craving for froyo along with a hymn:

Can we find a friend so faithful,

Who will all our sorrows share?

Jesus knows our every weakness;

Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Realizing what I tried finding but failed in getting was all the while found in Jesus, my eyes welled up. Now I know I have a friend more faithful than any other, who knows exactly the crap that I go through. And this was my response in faith:

You're the joy no one can take away

You're the joy no one can take away

You're the peace inside I can't explain

You're the strength I need

You will always be my strength!

And the rest of the week fell not short of a blessing.

Thank You, Jesus.

Post-EWLC Thoughts

Well, EWLC2K16 has come to an end, and though it's sad, it's not that sad. I've been to my 3rd Life Con this year, and honestly I had the time of my life in each. Yet, 4 years in counting with walking with God and I'm bored of emotional highs. Tonight could spark faith in many, but definitely not sustain it. We need God for strength and power to live out our walk with God and the body of Christ is there for support instead of emotions that come and go like the wind.

I hope that as Christians we continue to spur one another unto love and good deeds, even though gentle rebuke might not be the nicest thing to hear. I hope also that we have more compassion, as Jesus first showed us compassion, to include one another in our affairs instead of sticking to our cliques 24/7. While we definitely will gravitate to those closer to us, I really hope we be intentional in every now and then grtting to know the other members of the body of Christ. We are one in Him, let's not change that.

All in all, I'm incredibly blessed and honored to have served alongside the SFC ministry for EWLC, despite having already graduated. I do not take yesterday for granted at all. Thank You Lord!

Daily Verse (6/4/16)

“A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity.” [Proverbs 17:17]

It struck me two nights ago as I was thinking about it that friends are a precious gift of God. I have ever been in a time where I had no friends, and today I'm stunned that people want me to be their friend.

Who am I, that you guys would be mindful of me? Who am I, that God would care for me?

If you know me well, the fact I have friends, much more close ones, is purely by the grace of God.

Let us treasure dearly the precious and invaluable gifts God has given us, including our friends.

"Please Don't Take Them Away From Me"

I actually prayed that two nights ago, out of fear that I'll lose them (the last photo). I've lost friends before, I don't want to lose these.

Yesterday, during Life Con FD2, God gently rebuked me. He said, "Joel, I placed them in your life to point you to me."

God is good, and truly, whether He gives or takes away, it will always be good. Yet, I slowly realised the impact of this word–these friends will be friends for life.

Friends that exist for mere entertainment will never last, yet kingdom friendships will last a lifetime.

Friends that help one another grow closer to our Savior will last.

This is the mark of truly God-blessed friendships.

Thank You God.

Abort Mission

I'm alright with late replies when it doesn't have to do with plans or deadlines. Late replies cause me to cancel mission. Of course, I will gladly abort mission if needed, and no, I won't feel bitter like before, but I would be much more satisfied if I finish the mission that I started.

Heartened by SFC

Today is a Wednesday. This meant that I would travel to SAJC, as always, for our weekly Saints For Christ (SFC) ministry time. I met my unofficial mentee and got to know a few more people, namely Charity and Kendra, as well as to know Jonathan a little bit better. I was moved when everyone worked together well, regardless of which cliques they belonged in, and the clique-less mingling when going home together. I was heartened by the intentionality displayed among the J1s to know one another better. I hope they can enjoy what I didn't–a united SFC–and they really support one another with Christ in the centre as the year progresses.

-Joel Kindiak

Hurt

On Instagram, I have a goal—to encourage and to help people look at life from a Higher perspective. Yet, let me, in this post, simply be vulnerable.

Sigh.

Alright.

It hurts when my supposedly close group of friends, ones whom I spent a whole year growing close to, forgot me in two significant events, simply because I moved on from Ablaze to NS while the rest, as much as they should have followed me, chose to "stay back". I question their reasons, but that is irrelevant here. Even last Friday they held a birthday celebration for our junior, and apparently I was not notified. It just so happened that all the non-NS people were there. Of course, by then I've already learnt to accept exclusion and move on with life, and while I'm nonlonger hurt, I still remember the time that I was.

Childish it may be, it is not something I'll easily forget. This has made me erect yet another wall in dealing with people, to guard my heart maybe too much at the expense of trusting people. Is there any human I trust, aside from Jesus?

He who has ears, let him hear.

He who has eyes, let him read.

He who has a mind, let him think.

Free Wallpaper

Here's a wallpaper I did, based on the bridge of Darlene Zschech's 'In Jesus' Name'. Hope you like it!

Desktop:

Handphone:

Stop whining

Stop complaining that you suck in studies and start upping your game to master them.

The Beauty of Time

Time passes.

Friends you meet leave for a very long while only before catching up again.

Yet, after all these years, you still will be my friends.

Thank you for times we shared and for the rare times to come. I appreciate them all, be it more frequent or not.

See you next time.

He who has ears, let him hear

"This week has been filled with ups and downs."

"This week has been filled with ups and downs."

"This week has been filled with ups and downs."

Apparently the guys didn't care, so I shan't tell them. I shall instead summarise this roller-coaster week here

Before Monday:

UP — Had good tuition with a DHS student

DOWN — Was uninvited to send my LG leader off

Monday:

UP — Caught up with Benjamin and Bryan

DOWN — Was completely uninvited to my unit-mate's birthday celebration

Tuesday:

UP — Open House

Wednesday:

DOWN — Was fired (so-called) by my J2 student

UP — My DHS student enjoyed tuition

Thursday:

DOWN — My mentor was unable to meet me for mentoring

UP — The USP interview went incredibly smoothly

Friday:

DOWN — Pooped in my pants on the way to cycling

UP — Went cycling

DOWN — No one wanted to hear me share this

UP — I don't care

He who has eyes, let him read.

He who has ears, let him hear.

The Power of Phileo

Friendships last even when seasons don't.

Even when you're repeatedly not invited to events that your previous circle of friends do together. 'Together' probably lost much of its meaning then.

Even when a sincere text is responded with a blue tick. Trivial it may sound, but it reflects condescendence on the friendship. Or maybe just incredible busyness on their part.

Even when you repeatedly request for a catchup and the other party repeatedly procrastinates.

Yet, I, Joel Kindiak, at a ripe old age of 18.67, can say with a clear conscience—it is well with my soul. I understand that people are busy and hence neglect others. I've come to learn that one does not simply rely on friends 24/7 for fulfillment. Rely on God.

Nonetheless, their actions will not de-friend them from me. They will still hold dear to my heart, even though outwardly it doesn't look like it.

After all, friendships last even when seasons don't.

Dude...

Okay the title is a lot milder than the emotions I intend to convey in this post.

I love my LG. AH Cell, Shnameless and SALG, but have been let down by the latter one today. Danica was departing for UK today and I would love to have the honour of sending her off. No that's not happening, because my LG DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME ABOUT THIS.

DUDE. (Right now I'm scolding in my mind but choose not to express such displeasure here) A simple text/notification would allow me to travel to the Airport; I DON'T CARE THAT I LIVE IN THE WEST! Ya know...I was so tempted to leave the chat group on this basis, but choose not to make a rash decision as such. But come on people!

To be fair, not everyone went to the Airport. It seemed as though only the "committee people" did. Ah whatever man. It sucks to realise this but I guess just gotta grit my teeth and carry on, y'know. Suck it up and move on with life. It's not a right to be invited; it's a privilege.

To be fair, there's no right for me to be angry anyway. All I hope for now is to receive Danz when she returns from the North.

But still. Guys. Low blow man.

Emotion summary: 😡☹️😭😔

Never Letting Go

Time and again Love never ends

Finding freedom here, never letting go of You again

My saving grace, Champion of my faith

Finding freedom here, never letting go of You again

Suprisingly Positive

Dang I re-watched #potd2015 (link: https://youtu.be/1Shqaj636vI) and realised that I was surprisingly positive despite my horrible sickness...really blessed by God with joy regardless of circumstance.

Looking Back on the Year of Overcoming Power

Looking back, these 18 years have nothing short of a blessing. I have been an easily angered, attention-seeking prick for the first 14 years. Yet, discovering God's unmerited favor for me has transformed me tremendously.

I love SAJC. Amid the gossip about me that for some reason I do not hear about and the imperfections that come from even a mission school, God has used SAJC to restore everything that I've lost. Friends, grades and even on-stage stardom, the latter being one I officially retire from.

I've experienced success in my studies and healing for my body. I've matured a lot more in my thinking and know how to love genuinely. I've grown so much closer to God and have experienced His threefold blessings, physical, emotional and spiritual, time and again.

I've learnt that there are people who genuinely care for me and not everyone is living for their own sakes. I've learnt that friendships can last even when seasons don't, so long as we choose to be intentional in making them last. Most importantly, I've learnt that I don't know everything and need to stay humble and keep learning, lest my pride bring me a great fall.

2015 has indeed been a Year of Overcoming Power, where I overcome so many physical, emotional and spiritual barriers by the favor and empowerment of God. May 2016, the Year of New Beginnings, surpass 2015 in quality and in quantity, and may God use me for even greater exploits to come!

Throwback Letter

It's a long time since I left Riverlife, and I particularly enjoy this letter from a close friend of mine whose name shall be chan. Just wanted to share to you that youth can Dear Joel,

It's (insert name). I found my letter rushed and short, so I thought it'd be better if I sit and re-write it. Well, it's been a year or so since I've known you and it has been truly delightful. I want to say how comforting it was to have someone as cheery and enthusiastic as you to journey with me through different points of my walk with The King. I pray that this fire with continue to burn and grow bigger while you take on a new challenge: leaving for a new church.

I honestly know that The Lord has prepared you well to venture out into the unknown and to lead the lost sheep home to The Father. He needs someone passionate and dedicated. He needs you. So, I really hope that you will carry out His plans and remember that you are never a failure in His eyes. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, so are the people whom you will meet in future. And, for sure, you will find a community better than us — who will listen to your preachings, support you always, teach you fresh things, give you good advice, share thrilling moments with you. They are for you and never against you, because I know that if our Good Lord brings one into a different picture, He will provide you with the relevant necessities.

I pray for your family to be able to grasp this moment in time as an opportunity to grow closer to each other and to God. I pray for peace upon your homes and for you to find a second home in the new church you may join. I pray for joy to overwhelm you [as always] and I pray that you will bring yourself to love the unloved and unlovable.

His sovereign hand is upon you and the people around you, so never fear of lacking, for His love endures forever. I will never forget all the crazy times we shared with the rest of the youths and kids every Sunday — searching high and low for missing tags, being teachers to the younger ones, entertaining the children with drama performances, jamming to catchy songs, eating chicken pie on the blue, round tables and failing to finish Project SOS… Whoops?

Whatever it was, I am grateful for it and I hope to hear from you in the future. God has a majestic and exciting plan mapped out for you and He is coming to bring His lovely bride home. Know to discern right from wrong and trust in God alone. If you ever were to feel down and blue, Riverlife will always welcome you!

It was nice to know that your cell, actually, do care a lot, huh? Yes, I get how you feel. I learnt that you never know how much someone means to you until they're gone. I speak now, that I have not regretted one bit being your friend and sorry for all the awful things I've done like leaving you, Ben and Faith out during Kingdom Invasion. I pray for your forgiveness. I acknowledge that I wasn't being very nice, but I truly wanted to spend time with my cell for they hardly meet up to attend weird seminars like those.

I hope that you had fun during this year's camp and remember that it's alright not to have "gold dust" or "great visions" or "strange dreams" or "spiritual attacks" to define how strong or precious you are in Christ Jesus. I believe that He will give you these gifts when the time comes, or maybe nothing at all, but it's fine for all that matters is HE LOVES YOU AND HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER.

Last but not least, enjoy yourself and I now understand why you take a lot of selfless. I've learnt from you and I now try to take a lot of shots because I realise how precious they are. No longer will I cover my face from the camera now, aha!

Alrighties, thanks for the daily verses and the weird tweets. Thanks for the lame jokes and the many loud "AMEN!" s. I hope that wouldn't be the last time I hear from you. Text us more and the ushers + Aunty Celeste will always miss your morning shouts of, "AND WE WILL SERVE WITH JOY!"

I have to stop or else I am afraid I'll babble on till forever. We should meet up with the rest some times during the holidays. You will always be the decibel whom Jesus loves. Remember that, yo!

Don't stop loving Hebrew and keep that little booklet of Hebrew grace and all.

THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS!

With love in Christ,
(inset name)

P.S. I still hate math and calculus

P.S.S. Remember the note the lady wrote you during K.I.

P.S.S.S. That was funny stuff

P.S.S.S. QHAT SHOT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Inspiring in Suffering by Faith

Before I begin, let me say that suffering is  never caused by God. Suffering is the result of the sinful nature of humans and God will do all that He can to end our suffering permanently. 

Yet, Romans 8:28 tells us that God makes all things, good and bad, work out for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose. Believe it or not, it is possible to honor God amid suffering.

In my case, I became very sick in April/May his year. The folds on my skin tore and every small movement (eg folding my arms) gave me a burning sensation. I became so sick I had to stop going to school and having GP tuition. It was horrible. During this time my family kept on declaring by faith that "by His stripes I am healed".

Eventually after visiting In Him Church and receiving prayer from the members there, my parents had the prompting to purchase a certain brand of cream and moisturizer that my skin reacted positively to, and eventually my skin was more or less completely healed, even better than I was before I was sick, albeit with a little bit of remnant areas which we are believing by faith to be healed.

Throughout the time I was sick, I felt like giving up. I felt as though God did not want to heal me. Yet, my spirit did not give up, since God has promised healing of chronic illnesses in the Bible. So we kept confessing faith and not fear, trusting that God is faithful in keeping His promise. At the end of it all, after I had my final GP session before the A levels, my GP tutor told me, "You've taught me that it's possible to remain joyful in the midst of suffering."

Keep the faith, don't give up on trusting God, and people will still see God's glory in you, even if you are suffering.