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Birthday Jam 2k16

Birthday Jam was nice. ☺️ Used recycled photos since we didn't grab a picture yesterday.

No Regrets, No Turning Back

To everyone who actually reads this blog, let me say that today is a huge day. It's the day I'm getting baptised, and it's the first baptism I really knew what I was doing (was baptised once in K2, no clue what was going on). Today is the one day I declare that in following Jesus, I'll, by God's grace, have no regrets and won't turn back no matter what. God has been too good to me for the past 5 years since I got to really know Him. Thus, I chose Joel Kindiak, even though "Kindiak" in and of itself has no meaning, as my baptism name, as a representation of the overwhelming goodness and grace of God for me in my life and specifically the past 5 years of my life. These 5 years God has shown me what His grace really was like, contrary to the "balanced" teachings on grace many churches in Singapore preach. His grace compels me to obey, to follow. No regrets, no turning back.

Here are some highlights.

The main highlight, however, is the piece of green paper below.

This paper contains affirmations from most of the J1 SFC members. I expected 4 chunks instead of this almost 20. It stunned me when I heard the story; a few of them were writing, the others asked what for. They replied, "Joel's baptism," and soon after the others started to write as well. I was touched as I was admittedly not as close to them, though I made an effort to get to know them as well as possible and was close to SFC as a whole, and yet they still offered their affirmation of my choice. I was very much touched and know that all the more I can't take SFC or any of its J1 members for granted.

This was a blessed baptism, above all. No Regrets, No Turning Back.

26/4/2016

Chill

If we got nothing to post, just wait till we have something worthy then post! Chill mates 😌

Throwback to 24/8/15

Last Monday my friends and I were chilling at the table during recess, and for some topic they were engaged in I didn't know about it. Thus I was treated invisible hoping to be noticed, until I finally gave up and was like "ah dammit la". Destiny chose me to be alone, lonely and forever alone. For the next few hours I questioned my self-worth, about how I would never get a companion. The Lord gave me a craving for froyo along with a hymn:

Can we find a friend so faithful,

Who will all our sorrows share?

Jesus knows our every weakness;

Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Realizing what I tried finding but failed in getting was all the while found in Jesus, my eyes welled up. Now I know I have a friend more faithful than any other, who knows exactly the crap that I go through. And this was my response in faith:

You're the joy no one can take away

You're the joy no one can take away

You're the peace inside I can't explain

You're the strength I need

You will always be my strength!

And the rest of the week fell not short of a blessing.

Thank You, Jesus.

Post-EWLC Thoughts

Well, EWLC2K16 has come to an end, and though it's sad, it's not that sad. I've been to my 3rd Life Con this year, and honestly I had the time of my life in each. Yet, 4 years in counting with walking with God and I'm bored of emotional highs. Tonight could spark faith in many, but definitely not sustain it. We need God for strength and power to live out our walk with God and the body of Christ is there for support instead of emotions that come and go like the wind.

I hope that as Christians we continue to spur one another unto love and good deeds, even though gentle rebuke might not be the nicest thing to hear. I hope also that we have more compassion, as Jesus first showed us compassion, to include one another in our affairs instead of sticking to our cliques 24/7. While we definitely will gravitate to those closer to us, I really hope we be intentional in every now and then grtting to know the other members of the body of Christ. We are one in Him, let's not change that.

All in all, I'm incredibly blessed and honored to have served alongside the SFC ministry for EWLC, despite having already graduated. I do not take yesterday for granted at all. Thank You Lord!

Daily Verse (6/4/16)

“A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity.” [Proverbs 17:17]

It struck me two nights ago as I was thinking about it that friends are a precious gift of God. I have ever been in a time where I had no friends, and today I'm stunned that people want me to be their friend.

Who am I, that you guys would be mindful of me? Who am I, that God would care for me?

If you know me well, the fact I have friends, much more close ones, is purely by the grace of God.

Let us treasure dearly the precious and invaluable gifts God has given us, including our friends.

"Please Don't Take Them Away From Me"

I actually prayed that two nights ago, out of fear that I'll lose them (the last photo). I've lost friends before, I don't want to lose these.

Yesterday, during Life Con FD2, God gently rebuked me. He said, "Joel, I placed them in your life to point you to me."

God is good, and truly, whether He gives or takes away, it will always be good. Yet, I slowly realised the impact of this word–these friends will be friends for life.

Friends that exist for mere entertainment will never last, yet kingdom friendships will last a lifetime.

Friends that help one another grow closer to our Savior will last.

This is the mark of truly God-blessed friendships.





Thank You God.

Abort Mission

I'm alright with late replies when it doesn't have to do with plans or deadlines. Late replies cause me to cancel mission. Of course, I will gladly abort mission if needed, and no, I won't feel bitter like before, but I would be much more satisfied if I finish the mission that I started.

Heartened by SFC

Today is a Wednesday. This meant that I would travel to SAJC, as always, for our weekly Saints For Christ (SFC) ministry time. I met my unofficial mentee and got to know a few more people, namely Charity and Kendra, as well as to know Jonathan a little bit better. I was moved when everyone worked together well, regardless of which cliques they belonged in, and the clique-less mingling when going home together. I was heartened by the intentionality displayed among the J1s to know one another better. I hope they can enjoy what I didn't–a united SFC–and they really support one another with Christ in the centre as the year progresses.

-Joel Kindiak

Hurt

On Instagram, I have a goal—to encourage and to help people look at life from a Higher perspective. Yet, let me, in this post, simply be vulnerable.

Sigh.

Alright.

It hurts when my supposedly close group of friends, ones whom I spent a whole year growing close to, forgot me in two significant events, simply because I moved on from Ablaze to NS while the rest, as much as they should have followed me, chose to "stay back". I question their reasons, but that is irrelevant here. Even last Friday they held a birthday celebration for our junior, and apparently I was not notified. It just so happened that all the non-NS people were there. Of course, by then I've already learnt to accept exclusion and move on with life, and while I'm nonlonger hurt, I still remember the time that I was.

Childish it may be, it is not something I'll easily forget. This has made me erect yet another wall in dealing with people, to guard my heart maybe too much at the expense of trusting people. Is there any human I trust, aside from Jesus?

He who has ears, let him hear.

He who has eyes, let him read.

He who has a mind, let him think.

Free Wallpaper

Here's a wallpaper I did, based on the bridge of Darlene Zschech's 'In Jesus' Name'. Hope you like it!

Desktop:

Handphone:

Stop whining

Stop complaining that you suck in studies and start upping your game to master them.

The Beauty of Time

Time passes.

Friends you meet leave for a very long while only before catching up again.

Yet, after all these years, you still will be my friends.

Thank you for times we shared and for the rare times to come. I appreciate them all, be it more frequent or not.

See you next time.

He who has ears, let him hear

"This week has been filled with ups and downs."

"This week has been filled with ups and downs."

"This week has been filled with ups and downs."

Apparently the guys didn't care, so I shan't tell them. I shall instead summarise this roller-coaster week here

Before Monday:

UP — Had good tuition with a DHS student

DOWN — Was uninvited to send my LG leader off

Monday:

UP — Caught up with Benjamin and Bryan

DOWN — Was completely uninvited to my unit-mate's birthday celebration

Tuesday:

UP — Open House

Wednesday:

DOWN — Was fired (so-called) by my J2 student

UP — My DHS student enjoyed tuition

Thursday:

DOWN — My mentor was unable to meet me for mentoring

UP — The USP interview went incredibly smoothly

Friday:

DOWN — Pooped in my pants on the way to cycling

UP — Went cycling

DOWN — No one wanted to hear me share this

UP — I don't care

He who has eyes, let him read.

He who has ears, let him hear.

The Power of Phileo

Friendships last even when seasons don't.

Even when you're repeatedly not invited to events that your previous circle of friends do together. 'Together' probably lost much of its meaning then.

Even when a sincere text is responded with a blue tick. Trivial it may sound, but it reflects condescendence on the friendship. Or maybe just incredible busyness on their part.

Even when you repeatedly request for a catchup and the other party repeatedly procrastinates.

Yet, I, Joel Kindiak, at a ripe old age of 18.67, can say with a clear conscience—it is well with my soul. I understand that people are busy and hence neglect others. I've come to learn that one does not simply rely on friends 24/7 for fulfillment. Rely on God.

Nonetheless, their actions will not de-friend them from me. They will still hold dear to my heart, even though outwardly it doesn't look like it.

After all, friendships last even when seasons don't.

Dude...

Okay the title is a lot milder than the emotions I intend to convey in this post.

I love my LG. AH Cell, Shnameless and SALG, but have been let down by the latter one today. Danica was departing for UK today and I would love to have the honour of sending her off. No that's not happening, because my LG DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME ABOUT THIS.

DUDE. (Right now I'm scolding in my mind but choose not to express such displeasure here) A simple text/notification would allow me to travel to the Airport; I DON'T CARE THAT I LIVE IN THE WEST! Ya know...I was so tempted to leave the chat group on this basis, but choose not to make a rash decision as such. But come on people!

To be fair, not everyone went to the Airport. It seemed as though only the "committee people" did. Ah whatever man. It sucks to realise this but I guess just gotta grit my teeth and carry on, y'know. Suck it up and move on with life. It's not a right to be invited; it's a privilege.

To be fair, there's no right for me to be angry anyway. All I hope for now is to receive Danz when she returns from the North.

But still. Guys. Low blow man.

Emotion summary: 😡☹️😭😔

Never Letting Go

Time and again Love never ends

Finding freedom here, never letting go of You again

My saving grace, Champion of my faith

Finding freedom here, never letting go of You again

Suprisingly Positive

Dang I re-watched #potd2015 (link: https://youtu.be/1Shqaj636vI) and realised that I was surprisingly positive despite my horrible sickness...really blessed by God with joy regardless of circumstance.